Unknown

I, probably like most people, dislike the unknown.

Whilst I don't demand omniscience, having some bearing would be nice.

Currently, I do not.

There is a long list of things which I normally know that I don't at the moment.

I'm flailing in the darkness and don't like it one bit.

Firstly: how I feel. I have no idea what it is, I can't describe it nor label it. I can't decide whether it is good or bad, whether I should be feeling it and how to remove these feelings. The best description I can come up with is a constant cycling between disconnected happiness and an unquenchable rage. And that is severely lacking.

On top of that I don't know where I'm going, what I should do...just everything I had got in a vague order has come toppling down, leaving me without a clue.